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i dunno y i still have this thing, im on myspace like 24 now!!

( Willy Wonka: Everything in this room is *eat*able. Even I'm *eat*able. But that is called cannibalism, my dear children, and is in fact frowned upon in most societies. )

haven't updated in a while. but i have probable cause.

i have no time, but i figure it's all worth it.

mon-wed i work. tis true!

thurs im at wachovia for my internship in marketing [GO TO NIGHTMARES X]

fri i got labs at ccp.

tues and thurs i got bio.

not enough for ya?

the college process on top of that.

and now AP english lit & comp on saturdays. yes, im doin that. but not at vare. at frankford [dear frankford..]

doesn't seem like much, but it is. but it's ok. cause i am a pedersen, and i have no problem handling all of this.

i dunno. mayb it's just my imagination, but school seems to be going by fast.

cousins from danmark coming in nov! yay!

♥
~annie

danish law doesn't generally allow people to remain dual citizens. and there's a small chance, that if i learn the language fluently, front and back, and everything else, i may be able to keep it.

here's the dillema:

i can take a danish language class in denmark for 5 weeks in the summer.

buttttttt that means that i can't go to the island and spend the summer with faster erna.


so what i have to do, is decide what's more important to me. learning the language and staying a citizen, or spending time with my great aunt whom i love to death.


it'll take a while for me to figure it out, but im def goin next year, no matter what.

♥
~annie

wow. its been a while since i wrote in this thing. i used to post like 10 times a day. i guess i moved on to myspace...

carolyn's party's at 7:30 and im already ready. i know it seems insane, but i was actually anticipating an hour for my shower and an hour for my hair, and 20 min for my makeup, taking me up to 7:30, before even leaving. but oh well.

im sick as usual this time of year. had a mental breakdown monday too. interesting. it involved crying. tell me how thinking of denmark, where i really wanna be made me cry MORE! GOD. i miss it.

elections are over, congrats to kathy my fellow smut, and miller, of mcmillers. i dont care. you guys deserved it! we're proud of both of them.

moving on... my college apps [save for penn] are done. just gotta mail em out.

someone remind me about votta's collage tomorrow!!!

ollege is a new segment in all our lives. believe me, i kno that high school's not over for another 180 days from next tuesday, but let's face it. it's inevitable. im ready for that new segment. im ready to move on to college. its not even the fact that i'll be away from home [thas just a plus!] but it's also that i'll be livin my own life.

i've fallen in love with university of pittsburgh. i dont care what anyone says about it. i've fallen in love with it, and i really want to go there. even if it's just for a little while.

but while i'm so sure of what i want to do with my life, im dreading the future. i've never been more then 10 minutes away from home by myself. EVER. i've never had to leave my friends for more than 2 months at a time. NEVER. and potentially being 6 hours away from them kinda upsets me. i barely talk to christie anymore, but we've ALWAYS been only SIX blocks away.

i've never talked to chelsea and half my friends on the phone. but knowing that perhaps ill be unable to pick up and call them anytime i do something *smutty* makes me think. [not that im a smut or anything] even thinkin that i wont be in the 215 nemore makes me think about everything

but in the end, no matter where i go, ill be less than 8 hours from home. and i am ready for that. and even iff im not, i guess i have to be.

♥
~annie

life happns when your busy making other plans
~john lennon

my entire plan for my life has gone belly up. nothing's the way it should be. noone's how they should be. nothing's as i planned and im not too sure that that's a bad thing.

i applied to 11 schools.
University of Delaware
Shippensburg
University of Pittsburgh
West Chester
La Salle
Villanova
Temple
St. Joes
University of Pennsylvania
Drexel
Chestnut Hill

i fit all the criteria. for every school. including Penn. which has me happy.

but i dont even plan to go to half of them. Penn's my "just for fun" application. the one you file, unsure if you'll get it, but an experience to see if you do.

maybe my life will turn out better then i planned.

maybe the little things happening will have an ultimate effect, and it'll turn out just that much better because of these little things.

whether everything turns out right, or everything turns out wrong, i kno that i have 3 places that i can turn to.

my family.
my music.
and christie.

the three things in my like that i'll be sure about forever.

because no matter what happens, no matter what i say or do, ill always have my family. ill always have my music.

and for the past 14 1/2 years, and for the rest of my life, i know. that i will always have christie. no matter how many stupid mistakes i make.

as for everything else.

im not quite sure about anything else.

i question my friendships.

i question my grasp on reality.

i question the direction of my life.

i question everything.

except
them.
it.
her.

<|3
~christine

i miss australian tv. the best thing fredrick ever did was marry mary so denmark got it. i really miss it. in 2 years, with any luck, as long as i can pass the language proficiency test, ill be going to the university of copenhagen. but first i have to go to college for a year here. i dunno. i like it here, and i lvoe my friends [most of them] and ill miss everyone. but still, i feel more in place there, i like it better there, and i have all of my family there. ill be able to go to holland with thomas, or louise's wedding, or shopping with christina, christian, emelie, and everyone. i miss netto. i miss brughsen. i miss the family. i miss the feeling that everyday when i wake up im somewhere i belong, with people who call me "one of them." i miss being called "one of us." i miss the irish coffees at night. i miss the gammel dansk at breakfast. i miss hearing danish when i go out. i miss handling danish money. i miss all that and more. im off to work on the myspace. leave me some!

people want you to tell the truth, and when you do they get mad.
when you try to hide something, they get mad.
people change, and i know that. of everything i know, that's the one thing i'm absolutely sure of.
the people i thought were my friends, aren't. the people i loved to death, i dont anymore. realizations have been made, and you can't hold on to anything forever. no matter what we've been through, we can't hold on to it.
i've been cleaning my room, and i've come across alot of stuff from my past. alot from mya. but i realized that i have to move on. i deleted email addresses from mya the other day. i want to hold on to all the good times, all the memories, all the friends, but i think i've proved in the past that i cant.
when you do a massive overhaul in any room, you make two bags, trash and what to keep. and mentally, my trash bags full and my keep bag's pretty light. i got nothing else to right. i have memories to shread.
<|3
~oats

honestly, this isn't directed to just one person. more like almost everyone in my life. with the exception of chelsea, laura, sam, rachel, and monte. especially sam, who i haven't shreaded for 7 years. i love you guys

and as of now, im not a slut any more. i wont accept jokes at my expense calling me a slut, or a smut, or a whore. somehow, friends that call me that when it's not just us have led other people to belive nad take advantage ofme.

"just because you like white men and people take advantage of me doesn't mean we're bad people!"

so i'm back. not really happy about it, but i'm back none the less lol but anyway. can't wait to go out soon with people. im out, watchin phantom of the opera.

it's weird to think that this is our last summer in high school. next year we'll be the ones moving away to college and crying at graduation [dont lie, u all kno u will] but somehow, it doesn't seem like the end, but a new beginning in a world where noone know's ur past.

i kno that goin to college means a new segment in my life, and i kno that i can't stay in wiss forever. i say i wont move, but im starting to rethink all of that. life's what we make it, and staying in one place sort of shows a fear of change [not to suggest anything to anyone who plans to stay around]. college is supposed to be a time when we start the rest of our lives, doing something we want to do, learning about something we're passionate about. it's a time to move on from all the bad memories and start again fresh, but sadly that means leaving the good memories too.

there's the dread, the harsh reality all of us have to face: the fact that we won't have the security of high school anymore, and we won't have the teachers we've grown to love push us to do what we can. we won't have those that we love with all our hearts close by to run to when something exciting happens. shopping trips will be even less sparce, if they even happen. we'll leave the ones we love, some of us going farther away then others. my dread comes from potenially leaving those i love with all my heart *kath*gi*de*chris*chels*the rest of 12-2*some of 12-1* but it's all good cause ill always have them. i love u guys aaf.

yet starting over does have a particular goodness to it too. perhaps building better friendships with those you leave, because you leave. gaining a better understanding of what those friendships mean, and not taking them for granted, because you're so far away and want to hold onto a peice of the past. hell, im gone for 2 months and i feel like this.

i prefer life in denmark to that of the US because it's so much easier. dont ask me how, because life is life and the challenges come no matter where u are, but still, i like it better. my cuz's got my heart, every last 1 of em *thomas*louise*christian*christina*lotta*dorthe*knud*peter* and all them far extended cousins. they're great, and i lvoe them all. me thomas louise christian and christina may all move to københavn [not so big for them, huge for me] and we'll have fun, but that's just one of my options for next year. københavn universitet looks better and better every day because i have all my family here. hell, aalborg universitet would rock.

somehow i think the farther i go from philly, the better off ill be. i dont kno why, but i dont think im running away. i think im running towards something great that i always knew i wanted, and im just dying to grab now. the closer i get to filling out those applications, the closer i get to thinking: "do i really want to apply to schools solely in pennsylvania?" forget just philly, the entire state's too close for me i think.

having the option to go overseas for school for free is not an option for anyone i kno except me and my brother. but somehow, it seems like the best option for me. i know my cousins, and they know me, they almost break my wrists, but they know me. i love my cousins and they love me. they heard about my citizenship and my thoughts of potentially going to school in denmark and tehy were so happy, i'm "one of them."

and for once in my life, "one of them" sounds good, and i want to fit in with the crowd. for once in my life, i feel like i belong, and for once in my life, i kno that there won't be jokes made at my expense if i do something wrong, or pronounce something wrong. it's the exact opposite of high school, and im not one to complain. they know me, they get me, they understand. i've never had that feeling before now. noone has ever known the real me, gotten the real me, or understood the real me...

the me people know is just a cover, an exterior, a shell if you will. and noone, not a sole, not even christie, kathy, gi, de, chelsea, chris, or laura could know the real me without knowing all of denmark first. without knowing the happiness i have when im here, without knowing what makes me me. it's weird, but those bff's dont rly look like bff's now.


maybe i've just been lying to myself for 17 years. . . .









i love you guys, i really do, but honestly just the cuz's know the real me. . . i hate to admit that but i have to. the real anne belongs in denmark. hopefully fate agrees with me.

current exchange rate:
6.07697 DKK

fuck. it was 6.08 yesterday. i want everyone! that reads this. to write to me overseas, u kno the addys. and if not, there's in the post below this one. this may [or may not, but probably will be] my last post before my trip. please note that ill be gone from 17. june to 16.august. Danmark here i come



MY LOVE!!!!

for the record, many of us now know about my thing on the bus. now, for the record, we don't talk about it. ever. and i mean ever. i feel ccheap enough as it is. haha shut up.

christine kristensen
møllevejn 43
5960 marstal danmark

6.17-7.8
7.29-8.9


and

christine kristensen
ole svendsenvej 1
9990 skagen danmark

7.9-7.28

*six days to get mail, so mail it like, 6 days before u want me to get it haha*

for the record, no matter how psycho i get, i love all my friends to death haha its just stress from not being overseas yet. 16 days! so0o since i rarely update, and i kno that you all r gonna wanna write to me, here goes my addresses:

christine kristensen
møllevejn 43
5960 marstal danmark

and

christine kristensen
ole svendsenvej 1
9990 skagen danmark

i dont kno the dates ill b in each place, but for the record:: please allow 8-10 for delivery [once my dates are posted, so i dont get mail in skagen when im in marstal LoL

im out haha.

ok, so last nite was prom, and it was AMAZING! beyond gettin in a fite wit the limo company, we all had loads of fun, and it was over too soon. we danced all nite, and my straps broke, but i dont rly care LoL. so afterwards, me rach brian mary john britt mike sam and laura [chris went in limo a, cause we didnt think we had room when we did] went to fredrick's to eat, and then to penn's landing. so0o much fun! at chris' his mom [and mine] were takin all these pics, and we went to cait's for groups. then around and around and around for more pics LoL. but it was fun, except chris was allergic to my flowers haha. ms. scott did the electric slide, and ms. hack stared at us when we were dancin. chris gi and de decided to make some innapropriate comments in the limo, and i turned so0o red i felt so cheap ahha. i wish i could do it all again ahaha. so0o fun! so i think me n rach [and mayb sam n chris if they get back to me] are goin to the movies today, so imma go take a nap ahah. OR! post pics haha. that sounds better.

ok, so prom's in *hmmm* 6 dAyS! omG ths is gonna be so0o great! haha my dress is great and i lvoe itttt this is gonna kick ass. i <3 it. ok. thas it. someone IM me! genericoatsxox

wow. i ust kinda disappeared haha.
i've barely been in class all week for various reasons:
all day monday except 1 and 8 i think: ap theory test and pictures
1 and 3 on tuesday: theory oral
1-lunch wednesday: ap history test
all thursday: union league [plus dinner with girardo haha sarcasm]
friday: i was there haha

i got a job. its an ok job. its bringin me money!

we have babies. baby bunnies that is. theyre so small and cute! i saw 1 today [my dad thought he hit it wit the weed wacker] and he could fit in my palm and his ears were like half my pinky finger. so cute.

mom bought a suitcase today, mines next. can't wait, cause it'll be at least a 30" rolling samsonite. and i got a hot pink tag too haha.

concert's the 23, so on the 24, i start sax! woot woot.

prom's th 27, and i just gotta get jewelry! yay!



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Vi skal i Danmark for sankthansaften. Jeg er mange glad for det.

okay! yea, so im super excited! the above statemnt says "we shall be in Danmark for sankthansaften [st. hans night, june 23, a danish holiday kinda thing]. I am very happy for it."

noone knows how much i want this trip. just danish tapes with english people make me sick. watfch me get physically sick when we have to leave.